Joy Denalane: Sag's Mir

Joy Denalane-Sag's Mir
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I've been gone for a minute and with good reason. I needed a moment to see the significance of my life and how I fit into this world. I grew tired of longing and pining for love. I decided to explore me and like what I saw. I just ran out of things to talk about without saying the same thing over and over.

I always said this blog would be a peeling of layers to my soul and it truly is an unveiling. I've learned to just stop saying NO and being a prude. I'm saying yes to a wonderful existence as a result.

Sorry for keeping you waiting but a different me has emerged as a result. So check out a song I love very much which talks about the desire to make things right with a certain someone or even something. The song is not in English but music is a universal language.

The Root............

"Said I went, Said I went,
Said I went to the doctor.
The man told me
There ain't nothin' wrong with me

But I beg to differ,

I been feelin this pain for much too long

I feel like my soul is empty

My blood is cold and I can't feel my legs

I need someone to hold me.

Bring me back to life b4 I'm dead."

~ D'Angelo

1) Ok, so I am proud to say that the voodoo is off of me. Yay!! It seems as though I have lost the empty feeling I have been feeling for some time now. It's so empowering to be able to look at someone and say to yourself, "I get it and I can move on".

2) Chrisette is giving it to me this time around. I actually had to give Ciara a fresh listen and her new album is growing on me too. I love Turntables with Chris Brown. Damn that voodoo MAN!! LOL!! It had me down.

3) Important announcement: I want to be able to share pictures and all but you are going to have to meet me half way. So I set up a Facebook page to do it. Many of you may already have Facebook and most don't but either way it is where I plan to put my pictures and give mini updates. Here is the link: http://www.facebook.com/#1249230622 I'm still putting it together but in the meantime add me as a friend.

4) I want to say thanks for all the comments and encouraging words when going through my rough period. I knew I could count on my fellow brethren to keep it real and keep me going.

Fire Post....Song Titles!!

1) "It Takes A Fool To Learn, That Love Don't Love Nobody" ~ Lenny Williams (It Takes A Fool): After getting cussed out by my cousin for wasting time pining over someone who clearly doesn't want me. My response was "who is pining"? Her response was, "You, fool!! It takes a fool to learn......" LOL!! Gotta love family especially when they sing to you.

2) "Baby you should know that, I've been afraid to try. I'm healing from some things and My tears are pale and dry. I said "I'm through with love" You made it all a lie. You turned my never ever Into one more time" ~ Tamia (Please Protect My Heart): Okay so maybe it is time for me to move on. LOL!! But I will say that the experience has taught me that I can let loose again. I'm not the type to jump straight into a relationship. The word isn't used until after three to six months of getting to know each other. But I can say that I am ready to work towards that with the right guy again. I just hope that he has his own life because I don't like to be smothered nor do I like to smother.

3) "But we're never gonna survive unless... We get a little crazy. No we're never gonna survive unless... We are a little... Crazy... No no, never survive, unless we get a little... bit..." ~ Seal (Crazy): Okay the world is a little too crazy for me right now. I'm almost too afraid to leave my house for fear that I won't return. I see people arguing and fighting on the street after a drinking session or two. Or you turn on the news and see tragedy everywhere. I guess Seal was right. We have to get a little crazy to survive nowadays.

4) "It was like a lifetime pass right thru my fingers so long ago, so much that I didnt know kinda like a light shined down and showed me how gotta move on, that was then and this is now" ~ Lalah Hathaway (That Was Then): I have lost touch with close friends and people I used to care about so much. But after a while you realize that you were latching on to them more than they were to you. I simply stopped making phone calls to see if they would call me. No calls, emails, text messages, nothing. So I had to cut the strings, not that they even noticed. But each day has been an exposure to what God has been trying to show me all of these years. As long as I have me then I will be OK. A work in progress...........that's me.

5) "Woke up and realized this world's not so bad after all. Looked at it through a child's eyes..." ~ Destiny's Child (Happy Face): I enjoyed spending time with my little niece. She is just so beautiful and happy all the time. She loves to smile and you can't help but smile with her. She asks for very little and yet she is the happiest being. Never ceases to amaze me how life can be so simple when you look at it through the eyes of a child. I must learn from her those simple lessons.

6) "Why do I want it? Why do I love it? Why do I need it so very bad? Love doesn't love me. Why do I give it anything, everything, all that I have?" ~ Kindred The Family Soul (Can't Help It): My desires run deep, my urgency is present, my heart is ready, my soul is prepared.....somehow my mind isn't ready. I know I want love and a relationship but the fact that I want it so bad may be where I am going wrong. So maybe, just maybe I should just stop chasing it and trying to make it happen. Just look at it through the eyes of a child.

7) "We live, We learn, We love, In time...We give, We yearn, We grow" ~ Billy Porter (Time): I wouldn't say I came home with my tail between my legs. My mouth was fixed and my heart was ready but the timing was just wrong and off. I guess coming out has to be calculated. I guess God will let me know when I should just like he did with the ones I did come out to.